Two weekends ago, I did something I never thought I would do: I shaved off my Goat-T. You may be thinking ya ya good for you whoopee, you shaved!!!!!!!!! But seriously, what I have done can be considered a life changing action.
When I went to college to study, I ate to suppress my stress and gained 60 pounds (180 to 240) and started loosing my hair. This really bothered me because I was always the athletic skinny one with a nice head of black hair.
I moved from my home town to Ottawa for work, which in turn stressed me out as well, and was never able to loose the weight. Got Laid off during the crash of High tech industry, but was a blessing, I was able to have 6 months parental leave with my first child. When my parental leave started, I decided to shave my balding head and by then grown a nice Goat-T. After my 6 months, I took a job where my skills and assets could be used. Surprisingly, due to shift work, manual labor (factory job), very hot working conditions and liking the job, I LOST 40 Pounds in three months of working there. Now I work for the government in a stereotypical job, but leave’s me enough time to ponder about life.
The Goat-T was a symbol of my failure, of keeping everything inside, hiding behind the mask that was. Yes it was a mask that made me feel unwanted, ugly, fat, stupid, mean, and mainly unworthy of anyone’s attention. Wow all that from a Goat-T, who new?
Now that it is off, I feel liberated. I feel like I can do anything in the world. I now feel manly, smart, inviting, good looking, and Worthy. And the funny thing is that when I walked into a restaurant, this past weekend, tables full of girls were actually staring at me. I cannot recall at any other time when another woman, other than my wife, stared at me, it kind of felt good.
The funny thing is that I lost another additional 5 pounds since I shaved it off. I guess when you feel good the body follows.
I am now walking with my head high, a spring in my step and seem to be generally happy. Another thing is that I actually wore a casual dress shirt to work today, which I would have never done before (T-Shirts only kind of guy), and actually said to myself; I look good. So strange what less hair on my face is doing to me?
Wow, it almost looks like I am starting to get my emotional and spiritual sides balanced. I am now doing what feels good to me and not letting anything or anybody influence my state of being.
Hello world, I am back
Marcel
